I've been fucking miserable if you couldn't tell
I've been trying to find reasons not to hang myself
And I've been justifying every fucking thing I've done on my vices and who I once was
Torture
Torture
Torture
Torture
And every awful thing you did and said has been perminatly embedded in my fucking head
And no one sees how hard I'm fucking trying my best
between suicidal and shaking hands with death again
I'm a scum bag and I know it
I care for every one but can't show it
And it's impossible to love anybody else
When you're incapable of loving yourself